This is it, I guess.
Three months of hard work end today. Will we still be in the Eurovision tomorrow? Who knows? I hope so. I really do.
So many people have worked so hard, that it would be a real pity were it to end here. And the thing is, that there's nothing more than I can do except try and give my all tonight. That's all. The rest is in the hands of all the Europeans voting tonight. Let's just pray that they like the song.
Yesterday was full of mixed emotions.
The first rehearsal in the afternoon was an umitigated disaster. I was in a flustered mood and the contact lenses were hurting me a lot. My voice did not come out well at all and I felt something was going very wrong.
You can just imagine the mood everyone was in, in the afternoon. Nobody had the heart to tell me anything. But I knew I had done badly. Mark came into my room, pale faced. He just told me I had to do better in the evening.
I felt very low at letting down all those people and decided to go to sleep.
I woke up a totally different person. I felt strong and ready to take on the big stage.
As I set foot on stage for the second rehearsal, I immediately felt it was going to be right.
And it was. Everyone performed well. My voice sounded terrific and in control. I managed to follow almost all the cameras. And my contact lenses did not hurt at all! :)
As soon as the performance finished I met Mark and Robert backstage. Both of them had tears in their eyes. I knew we had done well. Mark could barely speak with emotion. As soon as we reached the dressing room I saw Philip, Gerard, John Claire, Mike and Joe Dalmas clapping. Yesterday morning's tragedy was over.
Now all that remains is the big night tonight. There is a lot of competition and it is going to be difficult.
I really hope we qualify. Not just for my sake, but for the sake of the 400,000 Maltese who will be glued to their television sets supporting us tonight. They deserve to see Malta perform next Saturday. And I will do my best to see that it happens!
Thank you for all your support, and I hope to have the strength to write another blog tomorrow.
Lots of love...Olivia.